These past two weeks have been difficult. I've been participating in the Daniel fast with my church and have been sitting in a lukewarm bath of apathy toward life and God. I began telling my husband that I shouldn't even be fasting, I couldn't pray because I just didn't care, and I didin't feel like reading the Bible (though I did anyway.) I skipped our Wednesday night prayer meeting and felt myself begin to go numb. I thought I was keeping my flesh down and keeping dominion over it by fasting but in all reality it still had control over my emotions and Satan found an open ear to whisper lies to.
Today, I awoke. I was laying in bed, in no hurry to get out, when I thought, I should probably be praying. Instead of me starting the conversation, I asked God what was on His heart and to share it with me. That was all it took.
God was excited to have the floor! He started to give me a pep talk, like Coach Taylor, He told me that He believed in me and now it was time for me to start believing in me. (He had told me over two years ago to write down my testimony, my story. I have been working on it but haven't truly believed in it. I am almost finished with it but have been far from excited about releasing it. He reassured me that when its His idea and I'm obedient to follow His voice, I cannot fail.) He told me to rise up and to begin doing the impossible. He began downloading ideas into my head of how to promote my book, how to share my story and how to rise to the position He has called me to. I felt like I had been baptized again, a fresh fire ran through my bones and I jumped out of bed to begin writing all of His ideas down.
Something broke off of me in the Spirit. I am no longer bound by doubt or apathy or complacency. I am filled with boldness and confidence. My life is going to be significant! My faith joined with God's power is going to plunder hell this year! We are going to take back ground the enemy has stolen! I don't want a repeat of 2011, I need to move forward!
I encourage you to ask God what is on His heart for you and I pray you will believe Him!! If it seems too big for you, then it's God! Trash your small thinking and begin to rise up and take your position doing what God has called you to do. We are part of a bigger picture, if we're not in position we may be holding someone else back from taking their position.
And Jesus said, [You say to Me], If You can do anything? [Why,] all things can be (are possible) to him who believes! Mark 9:23
Jesus glanced around at them and said, With men [it is] impossible, but not with God; for all things are possible with God. Mark 10:27